Fail, Fail, Fail.

Alright, so I've had a fail of not quite Epic proportions.  Trying Alli is kicking my butt.  This goal will be teamed up with the goal for next week (starts tomorrow) in the attempt to retry and achieve.  Also it seems like I'm in the habit that any attempts at dieting gets put on the shelf Friday at 6 and my weekend is filled with cramming every calorie I didn't get to during the week down my throat.  EPIC FAIL.
This is why Tuesday weigh-ins always show NO change. None at all. Maybe I should reconsider and make my week start on Friday (weigh-in wise, not for here). My reason being: my weakest days are Friday-Sunday. If that's at the start of my week, I can recover gracefully and I won't feel like a failure after dive-bombing the weekend.  Honestly, part of the problem is that I don't care on the weekends, and I don't want to put in the effort it takes to cook at home on my days off.  Hell I spend most of those days at home, so being able to go out with Rob when he's done with work is the highlight of my week.  This weekend, for example, we had Chinese, and Fondue in the same night (we did go work out first!), then burgers for dinner Sunday.  I personally had firehouse subs on Sunday, and went out for lunch with Jen where I had a loaded baked potato, cup of super yummy cream based corn soup, tater tots with ranch, and Chocolate pie.  Did I feel bad about it then?  No.  Am I looking back at what I ate as well as the 4 cocktails I imbibed in with fondue and thinking: "you shot yourself in the foot!!!"?  Yes I am. 
Most of all I'm scared of tomorrow morning.   Though I remembered the Alli with lunch, I've got it ready for dinner, and I have a workout tonight.  Maybe it won't be so bad.
New Super Goal (a goal that will last for a month, in addition to my other goals) concentrating on the weekend, being prepared, having it planned, and working out more.  Also moving weigh in to Friday (after recording weight tomorrow).

Blerg

Alright, in the grand scheme of things I honestly thought the goal for this week (try Alli), would be easy.  No pain, just taking a pill with each meal.
I was dead wrong. Apparently I have a HUGE mental block, and even with this large bottle of pills sitting right next to me, I'm forgetting them.  I've missed 3 meals out of 21, so maybe it's not that bad, but I have to think what about when it's not RIGHT THERE? I just have to put it in my memory, and that's what repetition does. Alright, I can do this...onward!

Goal 4

This week's goal is to try/use Alli for all meals. You see the scale has not been moving. I'm down .8lbs and that's up .2 since I started. I know I said that I wasn't going to focus on what the scale says, but in the end it bothers me that nothing is moving...I'm maintaining and it's a weight I don't want to maintain.  So, it's time to add a boost. I've tried Alli once before and it seemed to be doing what it was supposed to do, it was me who wasn't doing what I was supposed to do that made ineffective.  I believe working it in now will give me the boost I need at this point.
Now, I know diet pills are not a cure all, and that with most to maintain you're on them for the foreseeable future, but I've researched this. I'm comfortable with Alli, mainly because it's FDA approved, and I don't feel my heart rate sky rocketing through the roof when I use it. I've tried others before and let me tell you, the were not fun. So that's this week's goal, fun!

Goal 3 part 1

I did it, I worked out on Saturday, and subsequently couldn't walk on Sunday.  Time to start rethinking the whole work out video thing.  Perhaps, I should go with the lower impact weight watcher workout combined with walking. Or just the gym for now. The video I did concentrated A LOT on the upper top thighs. I'm still working through the pain.  On the positive side, one weekend down, 3 to go.

Goal 3

This week's goal is to work out on the weekend. This means work out on Saturday and possibly Sunday.  My normal workout schedule is going to the gym 3-4 times a week, but I never get there on Saturday or Sunday.  Really if I'm going to loose weight I need to get there at least 5 times a week. Now doing that it means the 2 days I don't go (because I'm an evening work out person) are Friday because I'm driving home and Sunday because I'm leaving home. This new goal is to go to the gym on Saturday and to do SOMETHING physical on Sunday.
There's a twist to this one since it only concerns 1 day, this goal won't be done till I work out 4 weekends in a row. That would be 8 days therefore it equals roughly one week.

Happy Birthday to me...work off that cake!

Happy Birthday...you gained a pound.

That's right I gained a pound. Boo. I'm going to say it's because of the fact that I hit the gym a few times. I thought I did really well this week, but in actuality I blow everyday with dinner. I really need to either a) eat before I go to the gym and skip going to the parents or b) still eat after, but have lean cuisine instead of what they're eating.  I'll figure it out. On the positive side, I've only had one cupcake in celebration. Now that will change tonight, but I'm doing good on points. I really need to watch portions as well, things to keep in mind. I didn't go completely overboard in celebrating my birthday so I did accomplish last week's goal! Yay!

To Celebrate:

A little cake for me!

Goal 2

So I stepped on the scale and I'm still 272! Woohoo! Yay new scale and guessing correctly. Awesome!
Alright...this week's goal is: To not overdo it on my birthday celebrations. Well, so far so good?
I probably completely blew it at the melting pot yesterday, but I had a lot of points left for the day, and I gained some by working out before hand, so I'm going into this doing fairly well. Tonight Rob and I are dining at home, so I'll be able to control what will be made/ate. Same with tomorrow till dinner tomorrow. After tomorrow it will be dinner on Tuesday...(still part of my goal for this week).
Next week's goal is: get to the gym, meaning work out more than one day @ said gym.
I just have to get through the rest of today and three more days...yay!

Goal 1

So I have written down all I have eaten for the last week. Goal accomplished.
Did it make any change? Well, ummmm, no (ducks in shame).
My portions are horrible, I ate well over my points, though today I'm doing well. The real test will come in the morning when I weigh myself. My honest expectation is the change on the scale is because I guessed my last weight. I know, that could set me up for failure or success (let's cross fingers for the latter), but it's tempered by perspective. My perspective is: it's like wearing jeans when you step on the scale.
You see, when you first join weight watchers you walk in in everyday clothes, or what you changed into after work (for me: jeans and a t-shirt), and you are surrounded by men in women in t-shirts and workout shirts carrying their shoes. Now there are some who are in their work clothes, but in my experience most were crew on the USS Wear-as-little-as-socially-acceptable-for-this-weekly-ordeal. That was the crew I joined by my second week. The result was, while I might not have had a stellar week dropping lbs that first week, I did see a lower number because I ditched the denim. This, in a nutshell, explains my perspective on what the scale says, the spike up or down has about as much to do with me as it does with new hardware. (For the record, I try to keep the clothing factor out of the equation...I'll let you guess how...)
Only tomorrow will tell what happens. Also tomorrow is a new goal!

This Week's Goal

The first goal to be accomplished: 17. Log/Journal what I eat on Weight Watchers Online.

I've been a member or the sight since this summer, and, with the exception of the first few month, I have been increasingly sporadic about using it.  Well today I reset EVERYTHING, and have written down all food ingested today. I have 9 points left for the day (not a lot at all) and will probably have to dip into my allowance points, but that is what this week is for: learning. I have to be mindful of it all, and eating with my family will be a challenge, but I'm committed to doing this. I'm also going out this week and buying a new scale.

So, here we go! 1 day down, 6 to go.

A few Changes

Alright, I'm going to make a few changes.
First, Mommy bought me these over the weekend:

 These are the Reebok Runtones that I've been coveting stalking wanting for almost as long as they've been on the market. When I say bought, I mean she saw how freaked out/bummed I was about the TREE that I received for Christmas, and when I mentioned that they were 50% off on Amazon with no tax and no shipping she let me use her AMEX to order them. They'll be here tomorrow *swoon*.





Being that they are a gift to me, it isn't right that I use them as the goal for this week. Frankly it's cheating. There for goal 24 will now be: Not to over indulge during/around my birthday, and mine and Rob's annual celebration "Our Birthday"
We're literally 19 days apart in age, so we celebrate together on or around January 9th, and my Birthday is on the 18th. We'll be celebrating on the 7th and the 15th this year which, yes, is 8 days apart and therefore a goal that spans two weeks, but I'm going to use it for MY birthday which is celebrated with 2 nights out (possibly 3) instead of one dinner.
The goal for the week including the 8th (this week) will be a different one.

The second change is: Weeks will be Tuesday to Monday to correspond with my weigh-ins for Weight Watchers (guess what goal I'm accomplishing this week, haha!). I realize that many of my goals can be accomplished in one week (changes in eating/drinking habits, working out etc.) but I have a tendency to get overwhelmed and quit, so by focusing on one little aspect at a time, I can truly knockdown some of the hurtles that have knocked me down before. I'm not even sure if the weight I put in to Weight Watchers online is correct, but it's the last weight I got before my scale at home crapped out. In that vein I will be purchasing a new scale this week so that on Tuesday I will have an accurate weight (and hopefully be pleasantly surprised).

The Goals

1. Get to the Gym in Austin
2. Get to the Gym in Corpus Christi
3. Workout on weekends
4. Drink 2 16oz bottles of water a day
5. Drink 4 16oz bottles of water a day
6. Drink 1 8oz glass of milk a day
7. Drink 2 8oz glasses of milk a day
8. Walk for 30 minutes
9. Walk for 45 minutes
10. Walk for 1 hour
11. Run for 15 minutes
12. Run for 30 minutes
13. Run for 45 minutes
14. Run for an hour
15. Eat 2 servings of veggies a day
16. Eat 3 servings of veggies a day
17. Journal/log what I eat on Weight Watchers online
18. Take multivitamins
19. Take Alli
20. Work out on the Eliptical machine for 30 minutes
21. Work out on the Eliptical machine for 45 minutes
22. Work out on the Eliptical maching for an hour
23. Go Swimming
24. Not to over indulge during celebrations for my birthday, and "Our Birthday"
25. Turn off TV and study 30 minutes an evening
26. Keep a bed time of midnight
27. Keep a bed time of 11:30 p.m.
28. Wake up at 8 a.m.
29. Wake up at 7:30 a.m.
30. Work out in the morning
31. Eat no french fries
32. Eat no pastas
33. Eat no bread
34. Eat no beef
35. Cook with olive oils instead of butter
36. Eat no fast food
37. Eat before 8 a.m.
38. Avoid snaking
39. Eat 1 serving of fruit
40. Eat 2 servings of fruit
41. Avoid candy
42. Eat a serving of non-milk dairy a day
43. Utilize Jillian Michaels work out DVD
44. Buy and use balance ball work out from Weight Watchers
45. Buy and use a shake weight
46. Drink only 2 Diet Cokes a day
47. Drink only 1 Diet Coke a day
48. Clean out kitchen
49. Eat largest meal at lunch time
50. Plan meals before going out
51. Use EA Workout/Golds Gym/ Wii Fit games
52. Take up Yoga/Use Yoga DVD